A Busy, Yet Fun Weekend Ahead….
A Busy, Yet Fun Weekend Ahead:
Tomorrow, I’m getting up and taking Cheyenne to school, then I’m off to Youngstown to pick up Georgeanne & Chris and do some last minute Halloween shopping before the Big Day! Then I have to get 2 new tires put on the jeep sometime tomorrow too, or I just might wait until Monday to get the tires put on, no biggie there. Then when Cheyenne gets out of school, she’s going to Tea´’s to spend the weekend. They’re going trick or treating together on Saturday. Then on Saturday, I’m going to a Halloween Party that Georgeanne is having. It’s not going to be a big party or anything. Just some family coming over. She invited Chris to come too as long as he doesn’t act like an asshole. Because if he does, I’m leaving and coming home.
Cheyenne’s class is having a Halloween party tomorrow in school. Unfortunately, the kids aren’t allowed to wear costumes, which kinda sucks! I remember when I was a kid, we had Halloween parties and we were allowed to bring our costumes to school and then change into them for the party later on in the day. Well, it certainly isn’t like that anymore. What are these damn schools afraid of? They act like Halloween is a satanic thing or something evil. It’s not an evil day or anything like that. And actually, celebrating Samhain is a family thing not just for me, but for alot of my friends. These schools need to wake up and realize that kids need to be kids. What’s the next thing they are going to take away from children these days? Okay, I’ll get off my soapbox now 
So those are my Samhain plans so far. But I’m going to get off of here so I can be up at 7:30 tomorrow morning. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(
Add comment October 29, 2009
Beth
Jack-O-Lantern Carving,etc…
Jack-O-Lantern Carving:
Cheyenne doesn’t have school tomorrow, it’s a school inservice day. It’s a good thing, because she’s not feeling good right now. Her fever is down to 99.2°, down from 101° earlier today. On my way home from Georgeanne’s I stopped at Kmart and bought 2 pumpkins for $7.98 and the Pumpkin Masters carving kit for $3.99. I brought them home to surprise Cheyenne and she was ecstatic that I bought her 2 pumpkins. This year I am just supervising her and she’s doing all the ‘work’ on the pumpkin. The only thing I did was use a knife to cut the top of the pumpkin. So that’s what she’s doing right now and when she’s done, I’ll post a picture of the finished jack-o-lantern. I’m so proud of her because she’s growing so quickly right before my very eyes. I’m going to carve out the other pumpkin tomorrow and I’m going to make a haunted house. Then on Samhain, hopefully some retard won’t come by and smash them! I’ll be mad as hell especially when they were time consuming to begin with. That’s what happened last year. Some retard decided to smash all the pumpkins in the park here. They were all over the road.
The plan for Samhain this year is to drop off Cheyenne at Tea´s house for them to go trick or treating. She’s staying the night there. So after I drop her off, I’m going to Georgeanne’s to make a little magick. I’m thinking about having a seance´. I’ve thought about it for awhile now and I think Samhain would be the perfect time to have one.
Well, I’m going to get off of here and help Cheyenne with her jack-o-lantern. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(
Add comment October 25, 2009
Beth
A Long Day….
A Long Day:
I got up at 8:30 this morning so I could get to my old house to meet the guys that were helping me get the rest of my furniture out. I got down there about 10 and they immediately got to work and started getting most of the stuff in one truckload. We took that load up to the storage shed and went back down there for the rest. The second load had Cheyenne’s bedroom suit on it. That definitely wasn’t staying in that flippin’ house!! I was pretty pissed off the other day when I went down there to find that the damn locks had been changed by the bank I’m guessing! They could have sent me a f****** letter to let me know that I had a certain amount of time to get my belongings out of the house. There was no way in hell that they were keeping any of my stuff! And to top things off, the mortgage company filed for bankruptcy, isn’t that nice?!? Also, when I got into the house, I found that some a****** opened up every single drawer in the kitchen, my dresser drawers, Cheyenne’s dresser, and 2 toy chests. WTF were these people looking for? Seriously?! I was pretty peeved. They’ll sure get a surprise when they go back in the house to find that it’s EMPTY!!! hehehe
Cheyenne decided that she wanted to come home from her friend’s tonight instead of staying again. She said that her eyes were bothering her and that she didn’t feel good. I just hope she isn’t getting sick again. But that damn flu is still going around the school and the idiotic parents that send their kids to school when they’re sick need slapped upside the head. They need to realize that when their child is sick with a fever, coughing, etc. they need to leave them at home. Seriously, no offense, but I know that when Cheyenne spikes a fever and or is coughing, she stays home until she feels 100% better. No matter what. I have respect for the other students and other parents should do the same…. Okay I’ll get off my soapbox now hehehe.
Well, I’m going to get going so I can get up early tomorrow and take the drive to see my good friend Marty. She just had surgery on her heart and I need to go see her for a bit tomorrow. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(
Add comment October 24, 2009
Beth
Maybe Just Maybe….
Maybe Just Maybe…. :
I will get some sleep tonight. Chris got served with the restraining order papers today and miraculously, the phone calls have stopped. For now at least. See, I knew the mother f***** had my phone number and I knew it was him that was calling me blocked. And the ignorant f*** would leave messages on my voicemail telling me how much of a whore I am and that I don’t deserve to live. Just a bunch of bulls*** if you ask me. See, Chris likes to flip the script and try to turn the tables on others to make himself look like a saint! But he ain’t no saint. The things that Chris has said and done to me, is unforgivable. I just wish someone would do to him what he has done to me and then and only then will he know the true pain he has caused me for the past year and a half. Because of what he’s done and said to me, I have no desire to date anyone. I feel as if I am damaged inside. What heart I have left, is still scattered in a million pieces and I am trying to pick up those pieces and get back on track. I never thought that when I gave my whole heart to someone, I would have it stomped on and shattered. So, I’ve built this huge ass wall around my heart not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough about me to climb over it and save me. The sad thing is, I did everything for Chris, I trusted him, I believed in him and this is what I got in return. Thank the Goddess that I didn’t have a child with this man, because I would have been bound to him for the rest of my life. And that wasn’t a chance I was willing to take, at least not with him. While we were together, I miscarried 3 times and I thought that I was being punished for some reason and then I realized (It hit me like a lead balloon) that I wasn’t meant to have a child with Chris. He would not have made a good father and I don’t like saying that, but it’s true. I still have so many questions as to why he did the things he did to me. He’s accused me of going back to Brian, and personally the desire to have Brian back just isn’t there anymore. While he was the one doing the accusing, he would be skirtin’ around with his ex GF T*****. He would go to her house and they would get all coked out and then God knows what would happen. But it was alright for him to do that and I wasn’t expected to get upset about it. She was another girl that he would get off on beating the piss out of her. Never again will I let another man treat me the way I did. That is why I am so not ready to get into a relationship with anybody right now. I need to be alone and work on fixing me and spend more time with my daughter.
Maybe you’re getting tired of me talking about all the bulls*** he has put me through, but this is how I vent and if you don’t like it, then don’t read it. Well, I’m going to get off of here and get ready for bed. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(
Add comment October 22, 2009
Beth
How Much More??
How Much More?:
Am I supposed to take? I changed my phone number just so the asshole wouldn’t get it and he f****** got it anyways. I’m getting really tired of changing my phone number all the time because of him. I went and got a restraining order against him yesterday. I called the police to let them know he is still calling me and it’s like they don’t want to do anything about it. My cries apparently fall on deaf ears! My sanity is at stake here, and it’s as if no one cares what happens to me. The POS gets off on making me paranoid and afraid and that’s why he does it. People tell me to not let it bother me, but it does. I don’t sleep at night because I have nightmares of him killing me. Real nice huh? I just don’t know what else to do about the jerk. Come Monday though, there’s a hearing to extend the protection order against him permanently and I am praying that the judge will see what this man has done to me, physically and emotionally.
Plans For Samhain:
I am taking Cheyenne trick or treating on Samhain. She’s dressing up as a Gothic cheerleader. Her costume is pretty cool. I wish they had cool costumes like hers when I was a kid…lol. I might go to Georgeanne’s to make a little Samhain magick. Who knows??
Well, I am going to get off of here, I just had to vent for a bit. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(
Maybe I just need someone to save me.
Add comment October 21, 2009
Beth
A Good Day…
A Good Day:
I sent my resume’ in to a few prospective employers this morning through Yahoo! Hot Jobs and lo and behold, I got a response. The job is a healthcare work at home position. I have an over the phone interview tomorrow. I hope I get the job or at least a job. I’ve even put in my applications at McDonald’s and the other fast food chains and apparently they don’t want to hire me….oh well their loss. Anyways, this job offers complete training and health insurance, which we both need right now. I’ll be sure to keep you posted on the job hunt.
I got my jeep back. It’s still running like shit. I don’t know. I have 2 people telling me that it could be this or that or whatever. So I said fuck it, I’ll figure it out myself lol. Well, I’m going to get off of here, it’s getting late. Until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(
Add comment October 20, 2009
Beth
Trip to the Doctor, etc…
Trip to the doctor:
I’m not really looking forward to going to the doctor in the morning. My clutzy butt, not paying attention, open the car door and whack my forehead off the corner of the door. It left a nice little gash smack dab in the middle of my forehead. There’s also a pretty good sized lump there too. Beings that I don’t like hospitals, that’s why I’m waiting to see the doctor tomorrow. It hurts like hell too, let me tell ya.
Chris keeps calling my mom’s phone blocked, and he’s dumb enough to leave a voicemail. Doesn’t he get the f****** hint that we don’t want to be bothered with him anymore? I don’t call his mother 20 million times a day and then leaving voicemails about her fucked up son, now do I? NO! Then why call my mother’s phone and saying ignorant shit about me on her voicemail? It’s just not necessary. It’s childish and immature. I am doing the best I can to get on with my life, but it seems like he is holding me back from moving on. If he would just stay gone, I would be alright….
Well, it’s late and I need to be up at 7am to get Cheyenne ready for school. Until we blog again, hugs & blessed be!
)0(
Add comment October 18, 2009
Beth
Job Hunting, My First Love From 7th Grade, Etc…
Job Hunting:
I’m not usually the type of person to look for jobs online. I will go to my local newspapers websited and look at the classified section that way, but it’s a first for me to go to Monster and try to find a job. I decided I’d upload my resume’ and see what happens. I applied at Radio Shack and when I got done with the application, it said based on my prior customer experience, that they may have an employment opportunity for me. It also said that a district manager would be contacting me to set up an interview. I am really hoping that they call. Even though it is seasonal, it gets my foot in the door and they may decide to keep me on after the holidays. So yeah, I was skeptical at first about online job sites, but I’m convinced that they work…lol. I’ll keep you posted on the job hunt….
First Love From 7th Grade:
I belong to Facebook and I’ve been on there for over a year now. I use it to keep in contact with my family and friends I went to high school with. Well, lo and behold, my first love, Patrick, found me on there. He sent me a message wanting to know how I’ve been. When I read it, I could tell that I was blushing because of how warm my face was getting. He hasn’t changed at all since school. And I still remember our first kiss. At the end of 7th grade, I moved away to another city and distance was an issue at the time, but we still remained close friends. I still thought about him after I moved. Then I ran into him again when I was 25. I was pregnant with Cheyenne and he was working in the ER at the hospital I had Cheyenne in. Those old feelings came rushing back again like they did so many years ago. He was real nice to me and we really didn’t get a chance to talk too much. And then, now, he found me on Facebook. So, we’re talking and that’s going good. He lives in Syracuse, New York which is about 8 hours away from me. But I think it would be worth the drive though.
Chris:
I’ll just put the header Chris on here, because there’s some things that I need to say and get off my chest. Chris has been calling my Mom and harassing her. Well, she called the police again tonight and Monday morning, they’re going to the District Justice’s office and filing charges against him. So now, he’s looking at jail time in Pennsylvania as well as Ohio. But he’s going to prison in Ohio for the next 18 months and I do know that when he gets out, I’m going to be long gone and my daughter will be with me, so he can’t try to come after me. Alot of people have told me that he more than likely come out of prison worse than when he went in. And I don’t doubt that. The brief time that we were together, he still scared the piss out of me. I never knew when he would snap and I would get the crap slapped out of me. He was so unpredictable and I didn’t like that at all. That is a very bad trait for someone like him to have. I had to find out the hard way. If I knew half the shit that I know about him back then, I never would have married him, because was jeopardizing my family, well being and safety of my family and I just can’t have that. He has too much of a history and I will NEVER make that mistake again. But he sugar coated things good though. Plus, I was naive.
Well, it’s late and I am exhausted. So until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(
1 comment October 18, 2009
Beth
A Real Good Day…
A Real Good Day:
Today has been one of my better days. I picked up Georgeanne today and we went to get our nails done and we just hung out all day. It was nice. Her daughter Heaven and Cheyenne went with us. We had lunch and went to the Halloween store to get a costume for Heaven, because she didn’t have one yet. Georgeanne felt bad because she didn’t have the money to get her one, but I am Heaven’s aunt and I wanted to get her one so she could go trick or treating this year and not be left out because she didn’t have a costume.
On the way back from our galavanting today, the jeep decides that it wants to start acting up by stalling on me and running like shit. So now I have to figure out what the hell is wrong with the damn thing now, lol. Oh yeah, after I dropped off George and Heaven, Chris shows up down there running his mouth as usual wanting to know if we talked about him at all today and actually we didn’t….hehehehe, prick! He was drilling Georgeanne with 20 questions wanting to know what we did all day and it’s none of his business what I do anymore. Take the hint that I don’t want to be bothered and even Georgeanne told him that. He just needs to grow up and act like a man instead of a 2 year old child. Well, I’m going to get off of here and watch Halloween:Resurrection on MTV before I turn in for the night. So until we blog again, hugs and blessed be! )0(
Add comment October 16, 2009
Beth
Mama Drama, Snow & Men….
Mama Drama:
Just out of curiosity, do kids have radar or something?? lol I swear Cheyenne does because every time I get on the phone, the conversation never lasts long because Cheyenne starts with the 20 questions thing and drilling me wanting to know who I’m talking to, what they want and why I’m not off the phone yet just to name a few. And I’ve politely told her for the few years now, that it’s not nice to interrupt someone when they’re on the phone. Then she gets upset with me. I try to not upset her, but it’s EVERY SINGLE TIME though!! If it’s not her, it’s my mother. I mean seriously whatever she wants to say can wait until I get off the phone. It’s just frustrating because it’s all the time and she wonders why I get irritated. Even when I am in the bathroom, she’ll knock on the door wanting to know what I’m doing and how long I’m going to be in there. Whenever I get out is what I tell her and then she gets mad all over again. Somedays I just want to scream. It’s not just me that she does it to. She does it to my mother and she does it with her dad too. There’s got to be some way that I can break her of it, but just don’t know how. So if anyone has a suggestion or whatever, please feel free to leave me a comment, k?
Cheyenne started Band last week. I bought her a new flute and so far, she’s doing really well with it. She takes lessons once a week at school and then comes home and practices it every day. I’m very proud of her.
Snow’s About to Fly:
By Friday, it’s supposed to snow here. They’re calling for a wintry mix, which should be just lovely!! lol Granted, the snow is pretty and all, I just don’t care for it all that much anymore. I loved the snow when I was a kid, but now that I have to drive in it, I don’t like it. Plus, the rear tires on the jeep are about shot. The cords are showing in one of the tires and the other barely has any tread left on it. That’s another thing that Chris and I got into an argument about. I tried to tell him that the jeep wouldn’t pass state inspection because of the tires and he said that there wasn’t anything wrong with them and said to not waste the money. Well I wasn’t going to buy brand new tires. My brother in law was going to sell me the mudders that he has for $30, but that wasn’t good enough. And there’s way more tread on them than what I’m driving on now. And at least I know I wouldn’t get stuck anywhere if I had the mudders on the jeep.
Men:
Where do I begin?? Chris has now reached stalker status because he calls me or attempts to call me at least 50 times a day, if not more. I really have nothing more to say to him, because he said horrible things to me, saying that I am worthless, I’m a whore, I’m this, I’m that. And once it’s said, it can’t be taken back. And apologies don’t mean shit to me from him anymore. I’m tired of his apologies, actually I’m just tired of him period. So with that said, I am going to close for now because I need to be up at 7:30 to get Cheyenne to the bus.
Until we blog again, hugs & blessed be! )0(
Add comment October 15, 2009
Beth
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